It's fun to "remember when". Some days I look back at myself and wonder if that's the same person. As much as I refuse to live my life back at my milestones, I'd like to think I've grown, changed, and matured. I am a sum of my experiences, whether it was grade school, high school, my busy days of singleness, a job, or living in my own apartment. I am confident that I have a lot to learn, but will only improve with time and each experience.
Nostalgia has a way of teaching: good, bad, and yes, sometimes ugly. Homeschooling taught me how to study independently; a skill that I've used throughout my life. Former jobs, former classmates, former activities...all of which were present to form, encourage, mold, and make what I am today.
High school taught me that I had a demented sense of humor and was far from the 'in' crowd. Social awkwardness and insecurities in the flesh. Friendships were far and few between, but nonetheless important and life-lasting.
As for the ugly? Do I need to explain I went to high school in the 80's? The era was chock full of fashion disasters and silly fads. Again, all of these things make me who I am today. Even my irrational fear of blue eyeshadow and painted on jeans.
And AquaNet with banana clips.
And carrying around that boom box. (thanking all that be for my iPod)
The biggest downside to nostalgia is believing that any of those days were better than today. I enjoy reminiscing like the next person. I have friends and relationships I've had for years, if not decades, I wouldn't trade for the world. They make my "now" better. I hope, in kind, I will do the same.
In a nutshell: Learn. Don't forget. Move on. Live in the now. Be the sum of your experiences and work at making your present, the very next best day.
~Bee is listening to Life Is Beautiful by Vega 4